Heartbeats that changed my life

After 10 years being together and 8 years of seriously trying to conceive,  a couple of  years ago we tried to get some assistance from specialist fertility Clinic. We had no success but did a series of things.

All sorts of testing up to and including several rounds of IUI.

We were just getting mentally and monetarily worked up for IVF

The last procedure may have  contributed to our current natural pregnancy. My partner had a thing call a hycosy, now I have no training in anything medical but basically this flushes the tubes out and kind of tests the plumbing.

Now we’ve conceived naturally we hadn’t considered recontacting them until yesterday. My partner had discussed this with workmates who suggested we contact them and see what followup they conduct with “assisted” pregnancies.

Turns out they do alot more than just wait around and see how everythings gone at 12 weeks. They do blood tests weekly and ongoing scans to make sure hormones and development are all going well.

The wife made a phone call yesterday and today we had our very first ultrascan today.

I have to say this lived up to the hype!

I was expecting to see a digitized still shot of  a prawnesk fetus or baby.  I certainly didn’t expect to see anything in detail.

Instead what I saw was an incredibly high quality movie of  a tiny small baby. To be precise about 1.17cm.

I was shocked by the clarity. I could see finger buds and toes.

But mostly I was taken back at the strength of the heart pumping.

!  WOW !

There haven’t been many points in my life where i have struggled to describe something but this is definately one of them.

It seemed to me the heart was pumping very hard and really fast.

All was normal and the Dr did a series of checks to confirm sizes of things.

The drive home was the most defensive drive I’ve ever done in my life.

During that drive I had time to contemplate.

I had presumed coming off anti-depressants drugs had been the sole reason for my wife becoming pregnant. The doctor was adament that this would not have caused this. He said in that amount of time we were talking about one strayshot would have splipped through.

He said that after a hycosy a pregnancy is not uncommon.

On the defensive drive home we dropped in and showed my mother the picture of the baby.  The picture we have does absolutely no justice to what we saw otherwise I’d post it up.

I have been informed at 12 weeks we do another scan at which we get a DVD so I’ll post that if I can work out how to convert it.

Ladies and Gentlemen I am not completely happy with this post I feel quite uneasy about it. It’s not as funny as my usual posts. Today was quite unusual and I am a little staggered by the way it has made me feel. It has made me reflect quite deeply and I think it has profoundly changed my life.

This is why.

The baby exists

I’ve seen it

It’s tangible

I know it is mine

It’s only a matter of time now until

I am a Dad.

I am asking for opinions here.

Has anyone had success conception wise whilst on anti-depressants?

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